halfway there

i feel like i'm ready to make yet another change in my ever-changing life... i'm moving (again). last night i was talking to a guy and he said he wasn't that familiar with worcester & asked me what i thought about it. my answer pretty much explained why i decided today that i need to change things up a bit. i said 'it sucks.. it's a boring city with not so impressive people in it and it's completely void of class and integrity.' then i realized, i don't want to be here. why am i here in the first place?! granted i do have a pretty nice apartment, but if i can't stand leaving it then we have a problem!
i came here for a guy and convenience (which is ironic seeing it made my commute anything but convenient). the guy proved to be a pathalogical liar and, as i just found out recently, an obnoxious cheater. (was aware of the obnoxious part, not so much the cheater piece) now i'm leaving for piece of mind. i have nothing left here. i've been holding on because i was afraid of change. i was afraid of living somewhere that i'm not so familiar with and that doesn't have family around every bend... quite literally. i think i'm okay with it now though. perhaps it was slightly premature to state at the start of this entry that i'm moving, but i am going to begin the apartment search again- somewhere in the walpole-ish area this time. steppin slowly, but in the right direction..... i hope.